My fibromyalgia syndrome

[does-the-NHS-work]

For me it has been about choices, to believe I am in control, to understand I am in control of my future.

What I see, hear and think have not always been the truth, I kind of feel now I was living in a state of denial, with the all common phrase "well it was all right really" when it was not, something was making me behave in a way I could not understand.

I read a report of a boy who was bullied at school in 5th grade, he also had epilepsy, back in the 60's they carried out an experiment for individuals with epilepsy by cutting the connection between the two halves of the brain, this for some helped their seizures but not all.

After this they conducted various trials on this boy with questions he would answer with the left hand and the righthand - to the astonishment of the medics they discovered something fundamental to human life, as the boys answers were different, with each hand?

Even though he had read the same question, the answer he gave was different with each hand, The question was "how bad was the bullying at school"? with his right hand he wrote "not that bad really) with the left he wrote "Extreme" Wow what is going on?

What the medics discovered was what they term "the inner child" you subconscious mind, and how it controls you, as here your subconscious mind now partly detached from the conscious gave its own answer.

For me this led me to understand some of my thought and behaviour could be triggered by my subconscious mind, basically I did not even know what I was thinking.

The fact of this revelation is fibromyalgia is directly linked to your nervous system, so when I thought about this I started to realise that may be I was just tensing up against Fear, holding my body, like when you clench your fist and let go it aches.

Once I understood this, and what was making me tense THE FEAR Triggers, (stored in my conscious mind) I started to adapt my life, I started by listening, watching my own behaviour, making a note of my behaviour - as a result this is how my symptoms have reduced, this ain't easy believe me, I am 57 I have leant the bad traits for years, but gradually things are getting better, I almost have the feeling I can turn on and off pain, strange thing to say, but I notice my body, in simple terms I have learnt to understand what is going on.

[Yassytina FMA UK Volunteer]

I have read your post with interest , and with fibro being connected too our nervous system some things I have been threw in the past now makes sense.

[does-the-NHS-work in reply to Yassytina]

I am very touched to think I could help you with some thoughts to your recovery, I wish you the best for your future.

My massage therapist a special lady at that, tells me we are in the age of information, only now are many of her clients coming to terms with their past, good luck.