Up Coming ESA Face to Face

[CrystalGecko76]

Well it's come around again...last time the guy lied about everything...said I had a car and drove myself there...I can't drive and don't own a car my dad took me...and said I was laughing throughout the interview...now I know I have a nervous giggle but I was hardly laughing as was in severe pain as well as bleeding heavily which I had been for over a month and was going to the hospital about this straight after and even he said did I want to go straight away...yet he never mentioned that in his report.

So these last two weeks have resulted in me being so stressed and weakened my oral lichen planus flared up big time and for a whole week I could barely eat and yesterday I got a massive cold sore...last time (and only time I've ever had a cold sore) was waiting for a PIP face to face...I've barely been out of the house since after christmas cause of one illness after another...yet I'll be told I should be in the work group - I can barely keep awake, I'm nauseas all the time, headaches that never end...add the other beauties of fibro and under active thyroid, diabetes and high blood pressure I'm living an exciting life (not!)

I've been to a tribunal before though and am prepared to do so again...

My concern is I've lost a stone since december and not really tried and the weight is still coming off...I'm 9 & half stone now (just under)

It could all be stress but I just want to be able to cope...plus noisy neighbour is also not helping and he is a nasty ignorant bully and is going out of his way to be noisy now! Yes the council have been on to him but he doesn't care...

Anyway I'm probably rambling but just needed to vent a little...I've had fibro now for 20+ years (same with my thyroid issues too) which is half my life...and I still don't know how to manage or cope with it...

[lucysmokey]

Sounds like you are under a huge amount of stress. It's good that you are able to vent here.

You say you are concerned about your weight loss. I don't know if you are now underweight or not.

If the horrible stresses you are under means you are eating less then that could explain the weight loss.

Unexplained weight loss is something doctors say they want to know about, so please get an appointment to get your health checked.

Although you feel like you aren't coping, you sound like a strong determined person as you say you've been to tribunal before and would do so again.

Sorry I can't be of any more help. Keep posting and reading here, and I hope that helps you feel less alone, and understood by others who are in a similar position.

[waylay]

How did it go?

[CrystalGecko76 in reply to waylay]

I have no idea yet just been told I have iron deficiency as well so not only do I have an immune system issue it's been made worse by the lack of iron...never had this before but been having heart issues, stomach issues breathing and chest issues and dizzy spells on top of all the other lovely aches and pains, and a sore throat...and now a global pandemic is not helping stress levels...had several anxiety attacks in just 2 hours the other day.