I have a meeting tomorrow with my psychiatrist. He called me in, I guess just to see how i am doing. However, I think I'd like some advice from you guys because I think if I talk to the psychiatrist with some of the concepts in my head I'm not sure he'll understand, which in my mind would be incredible because I know a bit about what a psychiatrist should know, from unit days, I did my study at Sussex University, which was considered a bit of a radical university at the time. I'm worried he'll hear me speak and start injecting me again with Risperdal Consta, and as you know I've explained on here it's EVIL stuff to me. Though I concede if you suffer from hallucinations or hear voices it may help you. The whole thing of my diagnosis was a farce. It started 6 years ago when I was actually arrested near the house I had a mortgage on when I stood up from a seat at a cafe and apparently the backside of my trousers were low. Some young dude at the cafe actually rang the police and made a big deal of it. The police arrived and cuffed me, took me off in a van and straight to a mental health unit. I was "assessed" and was "forced" to with a Risperdal injection. Another ridiculous fact used against me was that from nowhere mental health persons at the hearing also reported that I had been seen walking around the very small town with no shoes on. Yes I did this on a couple of occasions but it was during the summer and my house was literally no more than 15 seconds from the beach. So a totally normal fact was constructed to mean simething else and when at the hearing I said were any of you accusing me of this "crime" actually witness to it? No, they weren't. Thinking about it , it was like a trial/court the Nazis would have carried out. None of the public at the cafe were called as witnesses nor even the person who made the phone call to the police. How bloody well about that!!!! I apologize for the language but you can imagine how ridiculous that is. At my mental health tribunal hearings I had a lawyer who wouldn't do as I instructed and i basically got stitched up by the whole lot Subsequently six years of pain etc followed. I mean I found it difficult to think for this time which is what you would expect if you think about, what is likely to happen to a body that is not hallucinating or hearing voices and you give them a drug designed to prevent somebody from hallucinating etc!!?? Exactly, no PROJECTION. I feel like going to the meeting tomorrow and projecting into all the bodies/thoughts that constructed this reality "were lawyers, psychiatrist and mental health workers" spell cut.
I'm not too bothered if nobody reads this or replies. It has been cathartic and I'm still waking up and remembering what actually happened. Wish I could sue!