The clocks have changed so its dark early and the weather is cold and damp - It's the time of year I feel a cloak of gloom sweep over me. I've had a cough for over a month that won't go away and I'm still weak from the virus. I can't get anything done because I'm so exhausted and foggy. I then get so mad with myself which I know is wrong but I do anyway. I have a lot of things to do, but just can't be bothered. It's a vicious circle and very frustrating.
Just wondered if anyone else gets like this and finds it VERY difficult to be productive? Does it make you feel you've failed as it does me?
Meditation does help (when I do it) but it's hard to do when I feel like this. I also did Alex Tech but I'm not sure about it anymore, I have many questions but can't find answers. It really helped physically but you need a good teacher and that is a tall order. So I thought of becoming a teacher but the course is way beyond my physical capability. And they are all indirect about everything which gets infuriating as I prefer plain speaking. I don't like medications or counsellors etc.
This is bit of a rant as I basically cannot accept this condition and just think I'm doing something wrong but I don't know what so I don't know how to solve the problem. I think this may have been triggered by what someone said to me so that is also a problem being sensitive to what other people say, and getting down because of it.
Does anyone out there feel like I do?