Well how to start the day of the other day I was on here letting everyone know how low I was and how alone I was feeling and my hubby was not supporting me well, guy's now I know why as of last night we had a massive argument and it all came out here goes am sorry if this is unacceptable on this site but have no one else to talk to.
1, All my illness he didn't sign up for and can not cope and after going to doctors on Tuesday found out that there is something going wrong with my stomach so having to see a gastro medical Dr at the hospital so he not happy with that either.
2, That for the past few months he has not wanted to be near me or cuddle me because he has not loved me for awhile now I knew there was something wrong for awhile now but just couldn't put my finger on it first I thought he was having an affair but not that then last night whilst we had a massive argument he told me and omg I am in so much pain my head really hurts not slept at all my body is so sore. And he also told me that he is so fed up of going to work and coming home to help to pay all the bills he made it out like he was the only one working I have only just stopped past week. And early hours this morn I got to a very very low point were I was going to take all my painkillers and to be honest I still feel that way now .He said he was sorry for saying it and he didn't mean it but it's in my head now and I can't get it out I look at him and I see nothing just someone whom said in sickness and in health till death do us part but never really ment it so now I don't know what to do as he wants me to forgive him but yet he has now got me to this stage of wanting to end my life, I can't stand the thought of having to start all new again I made this home me because he can not decorate at all I dealt with everything but now I need him he does this.
Can anyone help me please I amback at my Dr today so going to let her know