Thank you to everyone who posted a reply to me last night. It is amazing to see i am not alone, obviously wouldnt wish this journey on anyone but its a comfort to know others know how i feel. A year of loneliness, being told i am a faker or liar by family and still looking for answers on how to feel human again has taken a serious toll on me mentally.
I am taking all your advice on board and will keep reiterating to doctors i need their help as whats been done so far is not aiding me at all. Just feel like i keep hitting a brick wall with them and go around in circles.
I never sleep well due to the pain and or nightmares i have everytime i doze off due to the depression so i never start the day well or refreshed. Hopefully i'll get there someday. Xx