I thought about writing a blog a long time ago but never had the courage. I think that writing things down about how your feeling is a great way to feel better as I don't have anyone close I can talk to and explain how I'm feeling so here goes.
Today is the first day of the 7 week school holidays and I'm really looking forward to a few lie ins and relaxation, although I have 4 children I find its much easier having them home and enjoy their company (sometimes).
I have really struggled to come to terms with my diagnosis of fibromyalgia but at the same time a little relieved that I can research the condition now I know what's wrong with me, when I look back I think I have endured this condition for a long time but always put it down to coming down with flu or over doing things. I have had a bad back for 20 years which has got increasingly worse since the birth of my last baby 19 months ago, I'm 40 now.
On the outside I look well but inside I feel like I'm so old and frail barely any energy to walk some days, also very difficult to be happy when your feeling so sore, writing about my everyday pain and feelings is the way forward as I'm sure it's a good thing to get it off my mind. I have been reading other people's comments on here for a while and get great comfort in knowing its no lingering my head and what I am feeling is real. ?? Without websites like this I would be very lonely indeed.