After failing at my ESA tribunal I decided to go down to the job centre to ask what happens next and more precisely, what do I do about getting no money. The woman on the so called reception was obnoxious!! She looked me up and down, informed me that there are no advisors in the job centres any more and I'd have to go online to apply for JSA or ESA. Everything she said could be heard by all and sundry. I knew already about applying online, but just needed to talk to someone and be helped. Why is it too much to ask ? I still don't know whether I should apply for JSA as I will have to sign a contract to say I'm fit for work when I know I'm not. Just the thought of going to interviews and on courses starts me panicking. What really got me mad was that she took great delight in telling me that loads of people with disabilities get jobs - I just got the feeling that she didn't think there was anything wrong with me and that all disabilities are visible. Her job is pretty cushy, perhaps she'd like to give me that for a few hours a day,providing of course I could have loads of time off in between. I know I'm ranting a bit, but I'm now so down. I'm sick of being treated like I've just crawled out from under a stone or the dirt on somebody's shoe. I just want to deal with human beings for a change who treat me with a little respect. I've really had enough of it all.