mixed emotions before next IVF cycle

[Endofitall]

After a prolonged break for endo surgery and then our naturally conceived ectopic pregnancy loss and further surgery, we are finally back on the IVF horse. So I’m sorry been AWOL from here a while. I found some useful books and podcasts on baby loss which were helpful for the emotional healing

My AMH has dropped further to 4.9pmol/l which worries me. I’ve had poor response in all my cycles getting 1-4 eggs, and we’ve had a total of 6 failed fresh and frozen transfer cycles.

This time we are doing oestrogen priming and using Pergoveris and double trigger. We are hoping to use PGTA and freeze all for first time too if we get enough.

I’m feeling super nervous on one hand that the change in protocol may make no difference or give us a worse response. But a little hopeful that the endo surgery will have helped with our recurrent implantation failure and maybe even my ovarian response.

It’s hard doing a cycle around the time we’d be due our baby if we hadn’t suffered a loss too, I don’t know how others have coped with this.

Hope you’re all having a good day xx

[Greenleaves1]

Hi - I did that exact protocol and had AMH of 5pmol. I got 4 eggs, 1 blastocyst. Good luck xx

[Endofitall in reply to Greenleaves1]

Thank you 🙏🏼 I hope we get something out of this cycle. xx

[FluffyFox]

Might be worth looking into embryo glue (we had an ectopic pregnancy too and I have used this on subsequent cycles which were both successful - it helped relieve some anxiety about the blasto moving to somewhere it shouldn’t again!). So sorry for your loss, it’s such a traumatic thing to go through. I found the EPT’s online resources really helpful, but do also consider getting in contact with them or having counselling if you think it would help.

[FluffyFox in reply to FluffyFox]

On the coping front, I got myself an EPT hoody and wore it on significant dates through treatment, pregnancy and following my son’s birth, so it felt like although the baby we lost wasn’t here, he/she was somehow involved and thought about throughout it all.

[Endofitall in reply to FluffyFox]

Thank you so much. The clinic I’m starting with for this cycle use embryo glue as standard so that’s great news - so glad it worked well for you. Gives me hope.

That sounds a wonderful idea. I also found EPT so supportive. Thanks again xx

[Vassi]

I just wanted to wish you luck, I decided to go for another round after 5 cycles, 10 transfers and a miscarriage and it never gets any easier. My sister gave birth on what would have been my due date and although I'm so happy for them it's painful sometimes like a reminder of what im missing. I still don't know how I cope, just have to I guess.I've chosen a new clinic this time and on a different protocol (pergoveris also for the first time) while I'm nervous my doctor says the definition of madness is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result haha so fingers crossed for both of us xx

[Endofitall in reply to Vassi]

I’m sorry you’ve been through so much. It’s relentless isn’t it. Sending so much luck and hope the protocol change works for both of us! xx

[Vassi]

Thank you 🙏