FET drugs emotional rollercoaster

[BearPanda]

Hi fellow warriors!

No other reason to post other than vent 😂 I've had my third transfer last Thursday and while the other two were an absolute dream hormonally speaking, this one is making me genuinely crazy. The other two were medicated on the same protocol (one didn't take, the second ended in an MC) and this time we went for for an unmedicated cycle. I've been taking most of the previous meds after I got my trigger shot, with a small exception; I no longer take Duphaston and I got given Heparin shots. The waves of anxiety, panic, anger, sleepless nights and random cry episodes are just something else. It's so bad it's almost comedic; I bursted out crying yesterday watching an advert and then abruptly stopped after about a minute feeling totally normal again. My cat has ostentatiously left the room in a protest of witnessing the drama unfold. I really hope it will be worth it and it's all in the name of a greater cause. I'm very thankful for this forum, it's been a lifesaver. Sending baby dust to you all 💖

[Millbanks]

Haha the hormones are such a rollercoaster aren't they!

I actually couldn't watch adverts for the RSPCA as I would just cry.... good thing is it's all totally normal - and although you probably feel crazy it's just a sign that your body is doing it's thing!

Good luck xx

[BearPanda in reply to Millbanks]

Thank you! Haha, those bloody adverts. I do hope it's a good sign 🤞

[PinkCat22]

after one of my egg collections last year , I was so hormonal.

I went up to hampstead heath for a walk and stopped to pet a cute dog. It was so cute I burst into tears. I mean SOBBING tears. When the owner asked if I was ok, I was crying so hard I couldn’t speak. Eventually I found the breath to say ‘it’s just your dog is SO cute…’ then started sobbing again. She looked at me REALLY oddly (it was totally justified), half smiled and tottered off.

I still worry I’ll bump into her again whenever I walk there. 😂

[BearPanda in reply to PinkCat22]

Hahaha, oh dear. Yep, sounds about right 😅

[Doodlebug23]

Sending you lots of 👶🏼 ✨

[Foxglove_daffodil]

The hormones are wild. I cried reading a BBC news article which I have never done before. Called a plumber yesterday to tell him off for missing an appointment which is actually scheduled for today! I’m very irritable with pretty much everyone at work, can’t stop snacking and also completely exhausted and falling asleep on the sofa at about 9.45pm. My friend told me to make the most of the IVF excuse and embrace the crazy lady behaviour. Wishing you lots of luck for your transfer xx

[BearPanda in reply to Foxglove_daffodil]

Omg that made me laugh, I might just try to embrace the crazy 🤣

[Natasha2012]

I could have written this myself ! I had my 2nd transfer (1st FET after first failed fresh ) day after you on Friday . I feel like it’s been weeks and weeks of absolute craziness . This cycle has really dragged and I found it a lot more challenging than the fresh cycle . I have had sickness and so many symptoms from the drugs . I’m feeling pregnant due to the meds which is driving me mad . Constant tummy ache and a heavy feeling . Tested yesterday and it’s negative ( odvs) and just feeling so out of control and fed up . I have conceived naturally with a previous partner and there’s apparently nothing wrong with me it was just my husbands low sperm count which led us to ivf so I’m just like why aren’t my embryos implanting. I’m 37 so I’m now thinking it might be egg quality . It’s actually driven me mad this month 😩 xxx

[BearPanda in reply to Natasha2012]

I'm sorry to hear that and thank you so much for sharing! I've been feeling pregnant for the first three days after transfer, so way too early and it all went away yesterday, so totally not helpful in terms of what should actually be happening. I've gone through the phase 'its my old eggs' after my first failed FET (I'm 36, but low reserve), now I'm fixated on 'there is something undiagnosed and seriously wrong with me'. Fingers crossed for both of us🤞🤞🤞

[Natasha2012 in reply to BearPanda]

I’m exactly the same ! My AMH is 6 . When are you going to test ? We got 9 mature eggs but ended up with 3 blasts , one top quality and two C grades . My progesterone was high on transfer day at 125 .as I’m on 3x Cyclogest a day . There’s literally no more I could have done 😩 x

[BearPanda in reply to Natasha2012]

That's not a bad AMH; mine is 4.1 so a bit less, but there is still hope! I think for a while it felt like a death sentence, and at one point I it stopped bothering me, I don't know why. But then I just found something else to worry about lol . Sounds like you're off to a good start! We have a test day scheduled for next Tuesday so still a week to go. How about you?

[Natasha2012]

I have been testing since 3dp5dt 😩 I have a constant stomach ache this afternoon . The symptoms are so intense it’s actually driving me mad 😢 xxx