1st FET (1st IVF cycle) coming up this week, 2 frozen embryos in total

[Patience2022]

Hi all, I'd like to share something. Overall my husband and I are doing very well, we have renewed courage to face what is to come 🙂 but I am having nightmares about the upcoming implantation... Sad but don't think I have any control over what I dream about... I seem to have lots of anxiety about it in my sleep.

In my waking life, I was thinking to myself "oh come on, this is going to be like every other two week wait", but it's actually so hard to convince myself that it is just an ordinary two week wait. Just wish I could will myself to think a certain way, so that I wouldn't get my hopes up. I mean when I'm awake, I am thinking rationally and I am fully aware that this could just fail and we'd try the last remaining embryo and then we'd move on to start a new IVF cycle. Part of me is fully prepared for having to go through another IVF cycle but part of me is begging for this to work.

I know some women try to test daily at some point during the two week wait. I'm not at all brave enough to test, if at all; I think I've done at most 2 pregnancy tests in my life.

For the two week wait coming up, I will try to occupy myself with all kinds of things but I know now that I won't be having dreamless sleep 😬 why do we always try to anticipate the future rather than just take it one day at a minute?

[M_fox]

it is such a difficult time.. Best advice I have is to relax, take it easy. Go for walks, no exercise or swimming. Watch films you haven’t seen and chill.. hopefully your dreams will settle xx Like you my mind was in overdrive but I didn’t test until the day before my formal test date.. I didn’t want to add stress to what my husband was going through as he’s read you could get different results because of the trigger injection. Good luck, this is the best time xx