So here I am, just 2 days in to the 2 week wait and as we have not told a soul about this I felt the need to write it down and hopefully get some supportive vibes from people going through the same thing.
Our first try with IVF was last October. I had a fresh transfer at 5 days with a top grade blastocyst. Thrilled to get a BFP and everything was going wonderfully until just before Easter when a scan at 23 weeks showed our daughter had died.
Once physically recovered I wanted to try again as soon as possible. My body craved pregnancy and I missed my baby so much. We were lucky enough to get 4 frosties from the fresh cycle. One failed upon thawing, and one came through the process really well. Had that one transferred 2 days ago. When we went through the fresh cycle we told everyone, and I felt very supported. This time around, we haven't told anyone. After losing a pregnancy at 5 months it was difficult to contemplate going through it all again with everyone knowing.
So now we wait, again. I'm nervous as hell. I'm nervous about whether it will work again or not, I'm nervous about it working and being pregnant again as I'm scared stiff I will lose it again. I'm a wreck! But I have to act normal as we are going on holiday with my in-laws on Sunday for a week and as they don't know I have to pretend nothing is going on.
Sorry for the long post, I just felt the need to rant/share!