Feeling overwhelmed on tww

[troupe]

Hi all, can anyone relate to feelings of being overwhelmed and then detachment in tww. I so often read about high anxiety and frantic testing, which I completely understand but after all these years and especially miscarriage last year I am now loosing the ability to focus on anything. The life has drained out of me and although I am symptom spotting, then chastising myself for even imagining that…well it’s gotten too much. Even the thought of a miracle makes me cry with fear of going through another loss, and then it’s also the anniversary of my eldest sons death when he was a teenager. I feel very alone, have no family and death and friends don’t mix well. I am a few days late, but still I cannot bring myself to do a test, it all just seems hopeless.

[Missl73]

Big hugs, this sounds so hard. I can’t even imagine what it would have been like to lose your son I’m so sorry. In the feelings of detachment, you are not alone, I can certainly empathise with those feelings, I’m often really scared to test by test day. I had therapy for PTSD after I had my son and a lot of that was related to all the IVF and the miscarriage we’d had as well as my traumatic birth. I really recommend looking up something called Acceptance & Commitment Therapy (ACT) which really helped me to cope better. Of course I still find it tough but I’m better at getting myself out of negative thought patterns. Take care of yourself.

[troupe in reply to Missl73]

Thank you for such a lovely reply. My heart goes out to you and what you have suffered, that’s the overwhelming bit isn’t it, the relentless nature of bad outcomes. I have been having counselling once a month privately as NHS is very poor and I had to wait three years for bereavement counselling with them. I know for sure that what I need more than anything is a break from all the long hours at work, my job is extremely stressful. I just need a moment to process. Take care and thank you again. X