Cancelled Natural FET, after failed medicated FET HELP

[Indigoa]

Bit of a ramble but feeling a bit low and confused. I did my egg collection in Jan/feb and got 26 eggs and 11 embroys all 5/6 days so I was thrilled with the result. This is when things were going well. Since then I was too over stimulated so had to do a freeze all cycle and my first FET failed. Straight after that so this cycle i started a natural cycle and it’s day 20 and I still haven’t ovulated and my estrogen isn’t high enough it’s only 512 so I can’t go ahead even though my lining is 8mm they think I won’t ovulate for another 3 days.

Strangely I had a peak smiley face on clear blue on Saturday but my bloods showed otherwise. So now this cycle has been cancelled.

I’m starting to panic something is really wrong with me now.

They have said I can try a medicated cycle next month or if I want I can do an ERA.

My doctor seems to think both are good options as they would change the medicated protocol slightly so I had more estrogen earlier on and could have the transfer earlier.

Any thoughts on what you think I should do. Very sad but know this is early stages but it’s still super hard to deal with.

Should reference I have had bowel cancer and chemo but that was 10 years ago when I was 24 I’m now 34! So I have been though a lot already. Chemo hasn’t affected my eggs which is great.

Help me with positivity please xx

[Daffodils140]

Congratulations on overcoming bowel cancer, that’s fantastic.

I know it’s really frustrating if a cycle has to be abandoned but I tried to think that I didn’t want to ‘waste’ an embryo so that made waiting a few more weeks and trying again more of a positive decision.

Best wishes moving forwards! Xx

[Indigoa in reply to Daffodils140]

Thank you for replying. Yeah it’s so frustrating it’s just under such strange circumstances because my lining was ready but my ovulation is just SO late. The waiting is such a hard part!

[Daffodils140 in reply to Indigoa]

Waiting is definitely the worst part as it feels like you aren’t doing anything but use the time to relax if you can, eat well, do some light exercise and other things you enjoy to help pass the time xx

[FertileMind]

We are so primed for negative outcomes... we have to switch our mindsets to be open to the quantum of possibilities and all the positive outcomes. According to neuroscience we create biochemical reactions in our bodies with our thoughts. So, focus on your body next cycle being fully prepared, perfectly healthy, ready and open to receive and love. ‘The mind-body fertility connection’ book by James Schwartz is very good. Meditate on what you DO want. It’s powerful stuff. Instead of creating what we most fear, we need to let go of all the negativity, imagine holding our babies in our arms, and visualise them growing every step of the way. I’ve found hypnotherapy and getting rid of any emotional/mental blockages really useful. We’re all in this - huge support vibes coming your way 😘