Having a bit of an emotional breakdown today after a disappointing second round of IVF. I was wondering whether anyone else has had a second round be much worse than their first and whether there is any reason for this or it is just bad luck?
I had my first round of IVF in November (lucky to get 1 round on the NHS). Wasn't expecting a good result with low AMH and only 3 follicles on the progress scans. On Egg Collection day we ended up getting 4 eggs and we were surprised to have all 4 fertilise. In the end we had a transfer of one on day 5 (BFN) and another one frozen on day 6. I was naturally devastated when it didn't work but hopeful that with a few more rounds we'd get there so bought a 3 cycle package privately with the same clinic with the aim to bank a few embryos and go for a FET.
Started round two this month with same protocol and after 11 days of stims I had EC booked in for yesterday. Went into it feeling quietly hopeful since we had 4 follicles visible on the last scan. Woke-up to the news that only 2 eggs were collected. I started balling in the clinic. The embryologist called this morning to say that only 1 egg fertilised normally. It was such a shock to go from 4 eggs in November to 1 in January. I can't help feeling like a failure and there is something wrong with me. What could have changed in such a short time period to have such worse results. Is it just bad luck? Or were we just super lucky on our first round and the rest will be like this.
I'm not sure if there's much anyone can say to make me feel any better but would love to know if other people have such varying results between rounds too. Am paranoid I am just a failure and this won't work for me. Maybe I am just feeling a little 'woe is me' today and need to sort myself out. The only glimmer of good news I have is that after concentrated effort we have got my partners morphology from 3% last September to 6% yesterday. I guess we should celebrate the small wins on this journey!
Sending lots of good vibes to everyone else going through a crap time