Struggling emotionally

[Kezzy1]

We were supposed to start second round of ICSI as lockdown started and obviously that's still not happened.

My first round of ICSI was emotionally draining and after I found out the first embryo transfer hadnt worked I really lost myself and a week later had family issues where one of my family attempted to take their live. I struggled through this period and started counselling which really helped.

We then had the 2nd FET and that was unsuccessful too and I managed to deal with this really well.

But now I feel like everything has caught up with me and feel like I haven't really dealt with the first ICSI cycle not working and as life with my family is starting to settle down its given me more time to think about myself and the past week all I've done is keep bursting into tears.

I just really dont get how I was fine one minute and now an emotional wreck when I've not gone through any treatment lately.

Any tips on how I can get through this or any reasons I'm possibly feeling like this would be great

[User20]

I'm sorry you are feeling like this. I don't really have the answer but did not want to scroll past your post without saying anything.

IVF is a very emotional roller-coaster...

Sending you some love x

[12356]

Sending you ❤❤❤❤❤and hope, I waited for 5 years before I got my first positive via ivf, ivf can be traumatizing, I fell in to depression and was struggling emotionally too at that point, I just write to give u hope, you will soon have your BFP, dont loose hope, do what makes you happy and and give yourself a good treat , everything will be fine, we will always be here for you.

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Kezzy. So sorry to hear that you've been struggling just now, and it is quite understandable. Perhaps you haven't had the support you've needed. It might be an idea to seek some support from different sources too, apart from here. You can access information about Support Groups in your area by going to our website fertilitynetworkuk.org and right at the top of the Home Page you will find support groups in the “How can we help” section. fertilitynetworkuk.org/how-... the groups are all online now since the Covid-19.

There is always the opportunity of counselling which should be available at your clinic/hospital once you receive your referral, or through your GP. A charity called the “British Infertility Counselling Association” can also be accessed at bica.net this is not a free service, but they are all specially qualified in counselling people with fertility issues and their relationships while going through investigations/treatment.

Hope that will help a little. Thinking of you. Diane

[Kezzy1 in reply to DianeArnold]

I was having counselling back in December with the treatment, last heard from her in February.

I have called her yesterday so really hoping she gets back to me soon.

I had sorted myself out but just struggling again now and dont know what to do with myself

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK in reply to Kezzy1]

Hi Kezzy. Hopefully she will get back to you, and she will be just what you need. Sending love. Diane xx

[JaneHaley]

Hi Kezzy, what you went through was a loss and grief. Grief unfortunately doesn’t follow a linear pattern and you will feel better and then worse and then start to feel better again. Although you will take steps backwards you will still start to process what happened and feel better over time. Allow yourself to feel how you feel.

[Kezzy1]

I dunno, but I do know this emotional stress is real. Never been so emotional and I think because I had so much going on at the time during treatment I never dealt with the outcome but instead I was too focused on family to deal with everything that was happening with me. I really hope I can get back to myself before the clinic starts to reopen 😭