Just need to off load.
After 2 negative tests after ICSI in November 2014 and April our consultant has said we should use donor eggs due to my ancient age of 42. This was a huge shock as I wasn't aware that this was standard protocol for us oldies. I kind of got my head round it to then be told the waiting list at our current clinic could be 18-24 months. I just can't wait that long. Another clinic 3 hours from us has been suggested and they reckon it would only take 4-6 weeks to be matched. I'm not against DE for any ethical or religious reasons but am still struggling with the idea of the child/ren not being biologically mine. I can't seem to be able to make a decision and I know I don't have to decide immediately but I am feeling the time ticking away., plus the idea of treatment very soon is exciting as well as terrifying. We went for counseling on Monday and hubby only went because he had too if we want to stay at our current clinic and wait for a donor there. The other clinic have said just to call if we want to go with them, but we'd have to pay out more money for tests and a registration fee on top of the treatment costs. I'll probably do a bit more research on clinics to see if there is anywhere nearer we could try. 2 over seas clinics have been suggested to us but I'd rather stay in the UK for treatment. I'd rather stay with our current clinic as we know them, they know us etc.
I'm waiting for my period to start, week late, usually like clock work but thought it might be delayed after treatment. Friend (same age as me) is expecting her first baby this week. I'm generally feeling a bit sorry for myself.
So today I decided that I don't have to make any decisions until I feel stronger emotionally and physically (so tired, not sleeping well, think I've got an ear infection - seeing GP later). Period started today too.
Sorry for long post, just needed to get it all out.