First off, sorry for the negative post!
We're waiting on our first IVF appointment but still trying naturally. The majority of the time I feel absolutely fine, I have a nice life & can see the positives for what they are worth. However, some days I feel unexpectedly weepy or emotional where certain situations will make me feel overly teary. Today was one of those times.
Today I had to attend a work event with a heavily pregnant colleague & she was lovingly rubbing her beautiful bump. I have no bad feeling toward her; she's lovely and is already a lovely Mum so onto her second baby. This unexpectedly set me off & I felt myself gulping to swallow away sadness. Later in the day today another close colleague announces that his Wife is pregnant & everyone understandably focuses the rest of the social chat around this. Again, I'm so over the moon for them but that initial 1-2 minute processing of pregnancy news just feels like a physical kick in the gut. I feel really crappy & just low. I feel like I must not deserve to be a Parent. Why is it so hard? X