So a close friend just announced shes pregnant.. she had been struggling to conceive because of PCOS but was lucky enough to fall pregnant naturally...this is baby no. 2.
Weve talked a good bit recently about fertility struggles and she knows my journey. Weve recently had a chat where she was saying how tough she finds other peoples pregnancy announcements etc.
If i have any IVF updates I always tell her first before I put it in out friends group chat etc. But today she went straight to the group chat to announce her pregnancy.
I know I should be excited for her..and I am.. but a part of me is hurt, 1. because I hoped Id be the next to announce a pregnancy and 2. because i would have appreciated a heads up.
The group of friends are all meeting for lunch tomorrow and so of course its going to be all pregnancy chat.. and I feel like a horrible person for having negative feelings but this journey has just taken its toil.
Im surrounded by pregnant friends atm and I guess this is maybe just the straw that broke the camels back.
So im probably just going to go and have a wee cry and hopefully be ready to suck it up by tomorrow.