Am I cruel?

[luv2017]

Ok I dreamt that am pregnant but today one of my colleague told me she is pregnant with second baby. She didn't even tell her mom but she told me. how nice is that and I feel am so important to her.

I am definitely 99% happy for her but 1% I feel why god is not giving to me at least one...I feel so cruel myself and don't feel like talking to her. If she knows that am ignoring her, she would definitely feel bad which I don't want to do her at this moment. She cried once few months as I was not talking with her just for a day. she is such a sweetheart. I swear I never be jealous on others but I don't know why my behavior is changing a bit when I hear other pregnancy. I feel awful. omg i should change ,she will cry if she feels am ignoring her.. did anyone felt the same way? i feel am so left alone...

[Tezzabell86]

It’s perfectly normal to feel a little jealous you are going through an emotional time at the moment xx

[luv2017 in reply to Tezzabell86]

Ok thanks for that . I really felt so awful . Am ok now , I told her to ask for any help and she was happy .

[Cinderella5]

I think we have all been there Im afraid! Its only natural to feel sad for yourself when someone announces this news, its not necessarily jealousy....it just makes the emptiness inside you feel all the greater! I dont have any advice really for this as you'll feel how you feel but dont feel bad about it and you're not alone!xx

[luv2017 in reply to Cinderella5]

Ya thanks for that. Yes it’s just sad , but hope something will also happen to me .

[Cinderella5 in reply to luv2017]

Yes, hopefully for all of us struggling!xx

[luv2017 in reply to Cinderella5]

Ya true .. my prayers for everyone who are struggling to have a precious gift .

[Lynnr54]

It’s normal to feel jealous when you hear of someone else’s pregnancy as you’re grieving for what you don’t have. You have to put yourself first and if you need some space from her for a couple of days I’m sure she would understand.

[luv2017 in reply to Lynnr54]

Yes thanks for that. She is so sensitive and I really don’t want to show my ill feelings or what ever to her . Am just going to keep everything with me and be normal and help her if she needs anything .

[Aleelilook]

Oh my god this is completely natural, you feel pleased, then you feel jealous, and then you feel awful for feeling jealous!! It is so hard, and you shouldn’t feel bad, just acknowledge that perhaps you need a little space at the moment xxx

[luv2017 in reply to Aleelilook]

You just exactly wrote how I felt , that sequence is just what I had and felt . Ya thanks for that . I hope I will be Ok.

[Aleelilook in reply to luv2017]

You will, it’s amazing the strength we find, but just don’t beat yourself up about it, you’re only human!! Xx

[Daxi16]

It's normal don't beat yourself up, I had 2 pregnant sisters at the same time 2nd pregnancies since I had been trying. I found it hard to talk to them they got upset. It's incredibly hard. Look after yourself x

[luv2017 in reply to Daxi16]

Oh ya it’s so hard to talk with them , I feel so so inferior being woman and so many ugly thoughts are coming , I know it’s really crap but I can’t help it , thanks for the message. Am trying to be normal .

[Daxi16 in reply to luv2017]

You know if you told her how you were feeling I bet she would totally understand and it would prob take the pressure off a bit? If she is a good friend she will understand Just a thought xx

[luv2017 in reply to Daxi16]

she is really a nice girl and so understanding and caring . I always care for a lot and she knows that . But this news makes a barrier and I feel I should stay away . Why on earth I behave like this ? No idea, but am glad am not alone with regards to this news . Am texting her asking what she needs to eat or anything she wants me to cook for her but I can’t ask her in person . It’s so weird , I hope she will understand. Thanks for your thoughts .

[Hidden]

Its perfectly natural to feel envious when you find out someone else is pregnant and you're not and you feel like its not fair why can't it be you for once?

[luv2017 in reply to Hidden]

Yes the same why can’t I have it for just once . Hope it will happen some day . Thanks for your nice message though