I just can't cope any more with it. I'm into the 8th year of all this. I've had 7 years of having to have perfect sugar levels, test and tests to be told "everything's fine" to then later be told I have endometriosis which is what causes me all the pain I suffer with. I then have had 5 fresh ivfs on long protocols which are very tough to manage diabetes alongside the hormones.
I spent two years having a break from ivf and helping my body with foods and vitamins to help manage endo side effects.
I do ivf again to have a second miscarriage. I'm being harassed at work by a pregnant girl and my company will not do anything about it despite me trying to tell them. This has caused me so much stress on top of my grieving.
Yesterday one of my friends told me shes pregnant (afterivf) and today my sister told me. Both at 12 weeks and would have found out 3 weeks after I miscarried my baby.
I've sunk to an all time low and just as i was starting to pull out of it again. I'm on the line of either sinking to a breakdown and even thoughts have gone through my head of how to end it all. I've thought about stoo taking my insulin or overdosing on it or pills. I just can't cope. I have no one to talk to. I have no friends and my family font understand.
Then theres a fire in me. The fire that wants to rise above it all and be the Phoenix after all has burnt down and rise again. I'm at an all time low. I just want the pain to stop.