We had a failed IVF cycle in March and it's been an uphill struggle to feel myself again and to get over the emotional impact of the whole process. I have been doing better recently, just laughing more & enjoying things again (particularly those you can't do whilst going through fertility treatment 😬) and we will be undergoing a frozen cycle in the near future, although I'm not 100% sure I'm ready emotionally yet.
I wondered if others feel this way..I can be having a really good day/feeling happy then something will happen that sets off the fear of an imminent pregnancy announcement from someone close, so far I've felt this way four times and each time I've been wrong! For example a friend will ask if they can visit me that evening as they need to chat or a friend who usually only texts will call and I immediately feel panicked that they're going to tell me they're pregnant and start worrying about how I'll cope.
I know it will happen at some point (many of my friends already have children and I find that easier to deal with for some reason) and I can't keep living like this, getting worked up when I have suspicions and driving myself crazy.I have had counselling and the counsellor did say it is going to happen in the future, I'm just not sure how to manage it. I know we're lucky to be having a frozen cycle but the failed cycle just makes you more negative and you do wonder if you'll be the only person in your family/friendship groups who never gets to have their much longer for family.
Any advice is much appreciated, I know they'll be others who have felt this way