*warning long ranty post*
So our first IVF cycle failed spectacularly on Tuesday. Despite 20 eggs collected, 17 fertilized and 9 embryos doing well right up until the day before our planned ET by the time of our transfer only 2 had reached blastocyst (more like 1 and a half really) with nothing to freeze. We were recommended considering our low numbers to put both back and hope. We knew it was a long shot our ET would succeed but its still been devastating to find out its failed. I genuinely didn't think it would happen like this, I did everything right, I cut out everything that could have been negative, I never missed treatment, I battled through severe side effects of medication thinking it would all be worth it.
I don't know how to begin to cope and go back to "normal". Family keep suggesting I do all the things I couldn't do before to "treat myself". They don't understand I don't want to do all that stuff it holds absolutely no interest to me. I have never felt so disappointed, sad and empty in my entire life.
That's our funding finished any further tries will need to be self funded and that just adds pressure to an already difficult situation.
Does anyone have any advice/tips on how to cope with a failed cycle, if you do I would love to hear them!