I'll apologise now if this comes across the wrong way. I might sound like a completely insensitive cow, I don't mean to but I need to get this off my chest.
So we went and saw the consultant the other day and she said we are now at the point where we've had all the testing etc and IVF is now the option, she put the request for funding in and we're now just waiting for an appt and our paperwork to come through... my husband is so happy and so excited and I don't know how I feel.
I'm happy he's happy but at the same time he still doesn't understand what an impact on my career this will have on me. I have the opportunity to do something amazing next year in my job but that opportunity will be withdrawn as I have to be area restricted for IVF. We've had the conversation and I told him straight I'm not ready to leave my job but he told me I was selfish and this wasn't just about me. If we're lucky enough to get pregnant he can go back to his job, his career exactly where he was but I have to completely start again. If we aren't successful I will have missed out on the opportunity of a lifetime to please him because he didn't want to wait.
This sounds terrible because I know deep down I would love to have a child but it's the fact that there is no guarantee of having one and it's my life and my career that is going to be affected by the IVF process and all the appointments and he doesn't get it. I know I'm being selfish but I don't know how I can make him see my side. He's been telling everyone it's going to be such a hardship for him when all he needs to do is produce a sample. He seems to forget it's my body, my emotions, my work, my life that is going to be massively affected. Does anyone have any advice to try and help me to get him to understand my position? Any help would be appreciated. Thank you x