I don’t really know where else to turn but need some advice, I have a friend who I fell out with a few years back as she sent me a scan picture to announce her first pregnancy whilst I was mid treatment waiting for my hubby to come out of surgery. I didn’t deal with her pregnancy well and we kind of drifted apart however we’ve recently got back in contact and I’m glad to have her back as a friend and be part of her little girls life.
However she text me tonight saying she needed to call me this week, I automatically knew what this mean (I’m sure we have some sort of pregnancy radar) so I text her saying if its pregnancy related she’d be better to tell me over text. She then replied saying she was pregnant and having her scan soon but didn’t know how to tell me as didn’t want to be an insensitive friend or lose contact again.
I don’t know what to do, I instantly think to shut her out again, how can I cope seeing her belly grow as I’m due to start treatment. I don’t want to lose her as a friend again, maybe this time I should be honest with my feelings?! I feel totally torn I’m happy for her but I’m completely heart broken for me. In the time I’ve been trying I’ve lost 2 babies and she’ll of had two, this journey is unbelievable cruel on so many levels💔💔
Ps. Sorry for the ramble and the fact it’s not treatment related!