I’ve never written a post on any sites (other than FB) and so this is a first for me. I’m 2 days past getting a BFN on our first and probably only self funded round of IVF. I don’t know how I feel anymore. Numb. I didn’t think I’d feel this devastated and neither did my husband. All the odds were stacked against us and yet we managed to get 2 eggs. I was incredibly shocked to hear this news but didn’t want to get my hopes up. I’d fully prepared myself for no eggs at collection. We were initially recommended ICSI however on the day DH’s count had improved dramatically so they performed IVF instead. Out of the 2 one fertilised and other wasn’t mature enough. So 1 x grade 1 embryo was transferred on day 3 and stupidly I actually started to see a little hope.
7dp3dt I experienced period type pains and thought it was all over, however I had been told this could happen as could spotting/bleeding etc so tried to reassure myself that it was implanting.
Seeing yet another negative pregnancy test especially after being on the highest drug long protocol is pretty hard to stomach as there’s really nowhere else to go, I honestly couldn’t believe it was negative.
I’ve read through many heart wrenching posts on here at different stages of my journey yet here I am now pondering what to do. I just honestly can’t believe it didn’t work. Though I should add I am 41 so odds wise it was always going to be tough. I’ve stopped the cyclogest pessaries as advised by the clinic and now waiting for my period to arrive.
We have to arrange a follow up appointment with our Consultant but I’ve no idea of what to expect. I almost think it’s a waste of time. Sorry this is is so negative I’m just very, very sad. Xxx