As suspected I've not down regged, they said lining is too thick and there is a follicle on the left they suspect is ovulation... long and short of it is 2-4 week delay depending on whether it's an egg or a possible cyst and I have to down reg for longer... which given my motivation for pumping myself full of chemicals and sticking needles in is already low the only thing keeping me going was knowing this process was almost over! And now it's not!
I've spoken to the nurses about just walking away from IVF totally and they said I can and right now it's a very real option I'm literally all out of patience.
I feel a little like I'm being held to ransom with the constant feeling of but what if it just happens, what if I regret not doing IVF while I have the chance in the future etc.
In short I just want to wake up in the morning and my day not feature fertility or IVF or babies and go back to being who I was before I came off the pill 2.5 years ago and get back to focussing on enjoying my life again!
All this is not a fun way to start a family! Making a baby should be the time of your life with your partner not appointments and needles and drugs and more appointments and needles and drugs!