So it's been a week or ten days or so since I took myself out of the IVF process after a failed down reg and a cyst had formed during the process and I was so down and depressed and ballooned to a size 14 with the bloating etc feeling horrible inside and out...
Since I've found that the cyst has now gone down and all seems fine.
So I haven't had it as bad as some and good on you for keeping going
I'll be honest the pressure of IVF the emotion the down reg drugs the snowball effect of even finding myself here needing IVF etc etc all became too much and I stopped I stopped for my own sanity and me and my hubbys happiness in the here and now!
I have not once woken up and regretted stopping and I'm at peace with my choice and its consequences, I read something about Christine Bleakley ruling out IVF and it really made sense to me and I felt thank god I'm not the only one feeling this way!
Words of advice:
I have also found out that all those people who tell you don't google IVF don't google your options or your treatment are WRONG google the shit out of it, look at research papers and swot up know what to expect and try to mentally be ready for it, tell your partner how you they can support you and also research ALL the treatment options oF IVF if you want different treatment or communication push for it!!
I've now found I could have had a short protocol or even a natural cycle and avoided some of the drugs... so do your homework!
Im going to chat to the standard counsellor at the clinic with my hubby and just talk out our experience and we have an open door on the other IVF options still with out clinic for 12 months... if we want it.
I know many of you are dedicated to IVF and are trying hard etc and I applaud you it's rough going! And you don't realise how rough until your in it.
Ive stopped it, it doesn't mean I'm not grateful of the funding or don't want a family any more or less... I'm not a horrible person for not wanting to put me and my hubby through IVF.
I don't regret stopping and I'm so happy... in these days since I've got my control back of my life, I'm looking months into the future and planning things again, bloating has gone, I've got my mental state stable, I wake up happy I'm smashing my exercise again running in a race next week and me and my hubby are laughing again and having lots of "fun"!! And to me that's more important...