It Hasn't Worked...

[liz1985]

Hi Everyone,

Well I just called clinic they said the IVF has definitely not worked too upset for words right now but thank you to you all for your very kind words and support lots of luck on your journeys xxxxxxx

[Kat9lives]

Oh I'm so sorry to hear this, take care of yourself xxx

[Hidden]

Aw Liz, so sorry had been hoping all morning that you would get a BFP it's such a cruel journey.

Take care xxx

[Hidden]

So incredibly sorry to hear that. Thinking of you in this difficult time x

[PennyPrimrose]

So sorry to hear that Liz. Have a good cry and don't bottle up your feelings. This is such a difficult journey but I have everything crossed that you'll get there in the endxx 💗

[Cinderella5]

So sorry Liz, thinking of you!

[zin123]

I am sorry, I feel your pain. I also got the same news yesterday. I feel totally broken. I wish you well for the future x

[Hidden]

I really hoped you'd get your bfp.

Gutted

[anna0908]

Sorry to hear your news. Xxxx

[liz1985]

Thanks everyone xxx

[Lamb82]

Thinking of you and sending hugs. X

[Hidden]

So sorry to hear this Liz, its impossible to get your head around this emotional rollercoaster. Take some time to accept what has happened and set yourself up for the next time. This may not have been your time but it will happen for you, keep your goals in sight, it does not matter how long you wait as long as it happens. Much love xx

[Hopeful1982]

Oh Liz, I am so sorry to hear this. Life can be so terrible cruel and unfair. Take time to grieve and be kind to yourself x

[Macca13]

Very sorry to hear this Liz. Keep strong and thoughts are with you xxx

[Hidden]

I feel your pain xxx

Take time and heal xx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Liz1985. Nothing really to say, except to send you both a gentle hug. However, on a practical note, before you go back for another consultation, I do have a list of questions for you to have a look through if you want. I can email you confidentially, as it is too long to add here, but if you want, my address is [e-mail] Diane

[Hidden]

So sorry Liz, make sure you take it easy and grieve. Sending hugs your way xx

[liz1985]

Thanks but i feel the lowest i have ever felt in my entire life i am sat here staring at boxes of tablets thinking i wish i had the nerve to take the whole box i took 4 then threw up! i really really dont want to be here anymore i will keep taking and not eating so this finally ends! i dont want to be here and feeling this pain! all my life since i was just a new born baby my body has failed me and now yet again it fails again! i am sick of hating myself and wondering why i am not normal!

[Hidden in reply to liz1985]

I feel for you 100%, but please don't think like that. You are loved by your family and friends who wouldn't want you to not be here. Have you spoken to the clinic counsellors yet or booked an appointment? Xx

[liz1985]

no i did a counselling course at college so know already that they will sit there be sympathetic listen and paraphrase etc...that wouldnt do me any good at all i simply dont want to go on anymore i wish i was dying so then i would at last have something to look forward to! thanks anyway honey but theres no hope for me i havent eaten for 2 days my plan is to get as unwell as possible wont take much longer im already a size 6 so hopefully i will get that unwell really soon that i will either die or go un conscious and get away from these terribly bitter thoughts i have cut my brother and nieces out of my life because i cant face being around them anymore or my mum i just hate everything and everyone at the moment and my mum has bared the brunt of it because she gave birth to me!

[Hopeful1982 in reply to liz1985]

I am so sorry you are feeling so down. I had similar feelings in the past where I just couldn't imagine going on living if I couldn't have a child. Counselling undoubtably helps. You did a course at college so you must think it can be beneficial? Apart from anything its worth a try when you're feeling so low. You can let all your feelings out in front of someone who won't judge. It certainly can't make it any worse.

Take care and be kind to yourself x

[isitonlyadream]

Hi Liz

Just seen this.... Are you ok?

No good not eating as you'll not be well enough for the next round. You have to pick yourself up focus on next time and keep yourself well.

Do not go into the black hole of depression it doesn't help and takes a long time to come out of.

EAT

SLEEP

GET BACK UP

Face the day again. Watch the news see all of the horrible things going on in this world. Take a deep breath and start again.

Holly x

[liz1985 in reply to isitonlyadream]

i dont have any more rounds left and simply cant afford another round so this is the end of the road for me xxx

[lianm8 in reply to liz1985]

Hi Liz. I hope you are ok. Ivf is emotionally, physically and mentally one of the hardest processes a woman can go through. I am sorry to hear your negative result but please don't blame yourself. There are lots of options other clinics can offer you to help you have your dream, monthly payment plans etc.

I know how difficult it is but please speak to your partner about how you are feeling, you need their support at this time. You need to give yourself time to heal.

It's emotionally draining- you need to rest, eat and have lots of sleep.

Sending you lots of hugs xxx