Hi everyone. I am a new here and have never write for such forums but .. I think its time to open my soul. I can’t stand anymore, this feeling is killing me . My young indiscretions broke my life. I have been in serious relationships starting when I was 19 yrs old, his was 25. Love, happiness , walking on the air. But
that Wednesday I was carefree , my dream comes true. A little life inside me. He was at work , should come at 6. My speech was perfect, dinner wonderful. His words – you should have an abortion. The doctor said that he need to make an surgical abortion. Everything was going good but suddenly I felt prick and passed out from it. When I woke up the doctor was sitting near me. His bad face suggested bad news. He told me that while he was doing the operation he eventually perforated the wall of the uterus with the sharp curette. As the escape of blood was huge as well as the walls of uterus, the best and the right solution was to remove the uterus. He explained this by saying that he was working blindly and it happen by accident.
. Long recovering, mentally sick, and fatal diagnosis. You will never have a baby. never have a baby. Can you imagine that. me – no !!!! My Love broke my life because we were too young.
Now I am 34, have a good job, great house lovely husband but my heart and house are empty. Infertility is my fate. How I want to feel this emotion when your baby holds your hand, say “mummy”. One time I was thinking about adoption, once about surrogacy. My DH thinks that surrogacy would be better, some part of us will be in this child. I’m frustrated, don’t know what to do. It will be great if some people who met such problems give me advices. I really appreciate this.