I don’t know what to do next... Last year I was living with the dreams of a child ... like all measure the basal temperature, crying upon the occurrence of menstruation, prayed for the baby. For a long time I was running the hospitals, handed over analyzes on hormones, did ultrasound from the best specialists of the city ... and that words killed me "urgent to diagnostic laparoscopy," there were some formations in the ovaries ... I've been crying, but went into operation with the thoughts that will remove endometriosis (the doctors thought)! And after that I will get pregnant and become the best mom in the world! Waste from anesthesia hard, has severe vomiting, a bunch of pricks! The doctor said that he will wait for histology, didn’t say anything more, and I thought it was all over! How wrong I was !!! I was discharged in 6 days! On the 7th day I came to the hospital and the doctor said that I have a tumor and get the direction to the Oncology Center. But I believed once I would have a baby. The operation was assigned in 9 days. I was terrified, but fought for their baby! All these 9 days (just the holidays) I handed over analyzes, while others rested in the New Year holidays! The operation went good but I departed from the anesthesia even more difficult, I couldn’t recover over 2 days. The doctor didn’t say any words. The histology came in 2 weeks and a bunch of doctors called me to talk. I was hoping to have a baby I didn’t think about bad things. They said they have to remove both ovaries and uterus, malignant tumor was turning into cancer. That was a collapse of my word, deep depression. Doctors gave me a medicine to calm me down because I couldn’t control myself. I wanted to die, I understood that I would never have a baby, that’s was awful. All my dreams about happy family broke down at one moment. I was appointed 6 cycles of chemo , I was a cancer stage 3, I’ve had 4 cycles and I’m done. I’m feeling right now very good and even thinking about motherhood. My husband supports me and he offers for a surrogacy I think that will be a good option for us. I would be grateful if someone can advise me good clinic with affordable conditions. Thank you.