So 3 weeks ago we got our longed for BFP....
So why am I constantly feeling defeated and fighting a battle.... I want to be happy and tell everyone yet we can't. It was a nightmare to get to the 6 week scan and that only cos we went private, should have been overwhelmed to see the heart beat but now I feel as though it's my imagination and it wasn't really there.
It's sad really constant knicker watching, even pain or twinge, every lack of symptom feels likes its over...
Here I am 7 weeks today and feeling totally defeated it feels as though my period is on route and am seeing more brown of the darker shade each passing day. I know people say it happened to them and don't worry it's normal but I can't help feeling like I may not be the lucky one for it to all work out.
Am tired, tired of the constant battle to get to the end only every day is a challenge, every second counts that we don't get a twinge or pain or bleed or brown or SOMETHING.
If I look back in the journey what will I see pain and heartache, tears, fears some joys, some laughs but s memory of continuous fight and strength I guess to continue on.
Sorry ladies I am just down and fed up when I want to be on top of the world. This journey takes everything from you it's hard.
Sorry for the sad post and rant
Good luck to all you BFPers 😬