Hi everyone. I've been meaning to write a post for a while now. I just wanted to give you all a little hope & a good story.
Me & my partner were trying to get pregnant for about 7 years with no joy at all! Because of finanaces & the post code lottery we could not afford any treatment. We paid for the odd tests & the doctor sent me for tests but could never mention it was for infertility because i wouldn't have been checked out. All my results always came in ok. We paid private for my partner to have a sperm test which came back that he only had 1% good morphology which should be around 4%... everything else was good. Again we put it off carrying on with our working lives, going on holidays, still clinging to the hope we'd just get pregnant naturally for another 2 years. But in the mean time i did my own research. I got us the best vitamins to take, i cut some things out, did things like changing my sugar to brown. When we finally went back to the doctors she was very straight with us & said it was very unlikely we would fall pregnant naturally & we need to save to go to a clinic to have treatment as we couldn't apply for the NHS to pay because our area wasn't funded. So that was that & we started to save to go to a local clinic. Nearly a year later i went the doctors for something different & she said she's been trying to get a hold of me! Because changes had been made & we could now apply with the NHS. To our surprise we qualified! We had to choose which clinic we wanted to go to as we could only go to a clinic that had good rates. We chose Nottingham, which is still really far from us but hey who cares when what could potentially be at the end! I would have loved to have gone the London one as there rates were amazing but would have certainly been impossible to keep going back & forth to there! We had a consultation & were offered IVF straight away because of how long we'd been trying. We some had tests, nothing was found with any of us... even my partners sperm was ok! Now i don't no if the results we'd previously had were wrong or because he'd been taking wellman vitamins nearly every day helped! When we started treatment it all seemed to go really quick! I had to inject my belly...i found this really hard at first as i really can't stand needles.. in fact i had a little cry & said i can't believe I've got to go through this! But it soon becomes normal... yes they stung abit but you just have to think what could be after it all! I found the worst bit was when they take the eggs from you...afterwards i was in so much pain i couldn't sit down but it soon wears off with pain killers. The most amazing bit is when i saw my embryo on a big screen & watched them insert it into my womb...yes it was very uncomfortable with lots of people in the room & it was a little painful but overall i was just so happy & excited! Then its the dreaded two week wait... only i just couldn't wait that long! Every day you think about it & although you try not to build your hopes up its too hard not to! But then you still have that familiar negative feeling & think its never going to happen to you! I did a pregnancy test on day 4 i think, that one come out negative. I did another day 6 & i saw the faintest 2nd line ever....but it was there! My partner could not see it only i could! So i did another the day after & yes that said the same! It took the day 8 test for it to show a little darker for my partner to see & believe. It was amazing being pregnant... i loved it but it didn't love me... i soon ballooned but it was mostly swelling & i had bad acid everyday but i really didn't care, the only thing that mattered was the baby. My labour was pretty quick & easy, in fact i enjoyed it because i was finally doing what I'd always wished for! & that moment my baby was put on me was the best feeling ever!
Our little girl is now 8 & a half weeks. She is so beautiful! She is like her daddy's clone! She's so alert with the biggest, brightest eyes I've ever seen. Every day is a busy day looking after her which i totally love! I hate sharing her... i just want her to myself (but i know i can't😑😕). Every day i look at her i know how lucky i am to have her... i love her that much i could just cry! She truely is just perfect!
We've got two more embryos that have been froze, they can only be froze for up to 3 years. So we are saving to have them & hopefully give our daughter some siblings. We're lucky to have age on our side... I'm 28 & my partner is 31.
Well my little angel has woke up now so I'm ending it here. Good luck to you all! Lots of love xxx
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