Well today in work my false face slipped and uncontrolable tears flowed! I grabbed a trusted colleague into the ladies with me and told her all between sobs, the clomid the awful downs I have and the pending 1st round of ivf. She was lovely and so understanding. She told me to stay put in ladies and she would go speak to my bosses and tell them I had to leave and the reason why. It wasnt exactly how I wanted my bosses to find out, i had wanted to do it myself but today I was in no fit state to do it! So thats it, and I feel like an idiot. I guess the weight of this whole situation has finally beat me and i am not as strong as I thought I was. To make matters worse a friend of ours announced a pregnancy, its her first at 42. She fell pregnant naturally, she wasnt even trying and thought it was a kidney infection at first until the dr did a scan and discovered she was 8 wks gone. This news hit me like a hammer. I hate myself for feeling so jealous and hard done by! Anyway, today has not been a great day at all! Thank god I have here to off load xx
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