My younger sister ( she is 23 and 5 years younger than me) just called me and told me she is pregnant and i am really happy for her, i love her to bits but i am not sure how i will cope. I want to be supportive and hands on and there for her in any way i can but i find it hard to be around babies in the general public never mind having one very much central to my life. My sister was on the pill and her pregnancy wasn't planned, i am waiting for my first lap which hopefully will be in june and i'm terrified i will find out i could be infertile. I tried with an ex for 18 months to get pregnant before i suspected endo and with my current partner we havent been taking any precautions for the past 3 months. I feel like such a cow cos when she told me i cried but not just happy tears, but because i wanted it to be me. I hate Endo why does it make me feel like this i just want answers, i am fed up i will have been waiting for 7 months by the time i get my lap done.