Just a self pitying post really, I just realised that whenever I have pain/symptoms I think, what did I eat to cause this? I must eat better/ exercise more/ manage my medication better/ take more supplements.... cope better! Maybe I shouldn't have had that wine! And really does any of it make a difference? Is it really all my fault that I have this? Or could I eat whatever I want and still be in the same pain?
My symptoms have been well controlled for ages but today is a bad day when I've had to cancel on friends and feel crap. I had almost decided not to go ahead with a hysterectomy/oophorectomy as I felt like I was managing the pain ok and didn't want to make things worse than they currently are with a menopause etc. And I read that it can't get rid of it anyway. And I'm terrified of getting depression again with hormone changes, as happened when I tried Norethisterone, I would rather physical pain than mental pain, it's awful! What if the menopause is like that for me and I can't reverse it? Agh.
Sorry, as I say, bit of a rant!
22 yr old feeling very low about endo & false menopause
Is it normal to feel this ill from endo?
Telling a guy about endo and kids 
Feeling very alone and hurt, endo and friendships
Can anybody else feel their endo?
