I hate pity but I feel so alone and hurt right now. Tonight, I was speaking to a friend about how I am not feeling right. I have a mirena, on the pill and I am very emotional. Before I was diagnosed I noticed a difference where I was over emotional, very high and the deepest of lows.
Anyway this has effected my friendships at uni, I lost a set of friends as I was getting diagnosed. I am so better of without them and have some really good friends now.
Tonight a 'friend' told me to 'sort myself out' and I am full of bull....I have too much 'baggage' and stop making excuses on my behaviour from fatigue and endo.
I told her I am in lots of pain tonight I don't need this I am on morphine and she was like oh yeah yeah whatever more excuses you like to use. I ended up blocking her.
Maybe it is me, I'm trying so hard to get my life back to some sort of normality, I don't like being sensitive to comments.
I don't use my condition as an excuse but when you are on so much medication and on codeine/morphine, you do not think the same to when you are not on painkillers. Plus my body is still getting used to the mirena I think and the pill.
I have a really close friend whose mum suffered from endo so she is really supportive, but I don't want her to worry.
Sorry there are people worse off than me right now, I just don't know where to go to express how I am feeling.
And sorry this is long or doesn't make much sense I am in a morphine daze ATM!