Open Myomectomy: 4 Days Until Surgery

[SimplyDeeDee]

With just 4 days until my next operation I’m feeling quite nervous. I know I have to have it and I praying everything will go to plan but I think the unknown of what to expect pain and recovery wise is starting to get to me.

During this surgery they will remove the rest of the endometriosis and as may of the multiple fibroids as possible; this will include the large fibroids resting on my bladder and back passage.

In an ideal world I’d like him to remove all fibroids because I don’t want the small ones to start growing rapidly because others have been removed but I know that may not be possible.

During the laparoscopy in March I was absolutely fine not nervous at all and the doctors kept asking me if I knew what was going to happen. To them, my laid back attitude was unusual but having been though it before (only at a different hospital) I knew what to expect, so I was very calm.

For the past week my sleep has been affected with anxiety and the headaches being triggered by the prostap injection don’t help as well as the other side affects. I have lots of support around me and everyone is giving me reassuring words but I can’t stop my mind drifting off to negative thoughts. Also my faith in the hospital is at an all time low due to all the messing around I’ve had recently.

I had a colonoscopy last week and there was no evidence of colon cancer. They have taken biopsies to see if there is another reason for my symptoms but I won’t get the result until the day of my surgery so I’m told but I doubt they will be that organised that department hasn’t been a joy to deal with.

I had a blood test a week ago after feeling more tired, achey and lethargic than previously. The results came back and I’m anaemic so I’ve been taking tablets for that and know they will take a while for them to kick in.

I had a call from my consultants secretary yesterday asking me to come in before surgery. I don’t have an appointment and I’ve no idea what he wants to discuss; I actually thought we’d done this but I was going for my pre op bloods anyway so I guess I’ll find out; I just hope nothing else arises.

Apologies for all the negativity I’m trying my best to shift it; I just needed to release.

[weekari]

Wow, that's just so much to be holding in your mind! The build up is always the worst part. You must just want out to be over with. There are so many unknowns for you so your bound to be anxious.

My guess is the surgeon will want to go over the surgery plan, the risks and agree on what they can/can't do depending on what they find. I think this is much better than doing it the day off surgery as we're usually not that able to think clearly once we're at that point.

Are you doing anything to try help your mind? I know I have a tendency to worry about what could go wrong, which isn't really that helpful a lot of the time (or ever?). I find meditating really helps with this. And I also find EFT (emotional freedom therapy aka tapping) really helps me let go of things. Brad Yates on YouTube is great. I'm sure he'll have an eft for surgery or health fears or maybe just feeling out of control might be a good search?

I really feel for you. I wish I could say something more helpful. I hope so much this surgery will give you a huge improvement. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Please keep us updated. I'll be sending you endo removing and good healing vibes next week!

Xx

[SimplyDeeDee in reply to weekari]

Thanks Weekari,

I’ve gone over the plan of action twice with him already and I’ll most probably go through it again on the day which is protocol. There will also be someone to talk to about fears but I just need to clear my mind a little now just to get a couple nights of good sleep beforehand.

I was originally supposed to have my surgery last month but it got postponed last minute, so I’m as prepared as I can be.

I’m trying to do mindfulness but my minds very distracted, relaxing baths etc tones of lavender; I’m trying everything.

Not long now and I’m hoping for an improvement too; life like this is just is no fun at all.

I’ll keep you posted x