Straight to it.
I think I must be able to feel, externally, either the multiple cysts (seen during ultrasound scan) or part of the suspected endometriosis on the outside of my body.
Two years ago, not long after having an emergency CSection, I noticed a lump, on the left about an inch below my scar that I thought could be from an internal stitch or something. Got it checked, got dismissed. It grew over a few months to the size of a pea, couldn’t see it from the outside but could feel it if I felt for it. Got it checked, got dismissed. It started to hurt leading up to my period, a visible pouch seemed to be forming around it which was bigger leading up to my period. Got it checked... wait... got dismissed, kind of. But got the Mirena coil fitted. Lump remained. Pain ok for about six months. But started getting lower back and left hip pain.
Recently (in the last 3 months) Pain increased, worse leading up to my period (but I don’t bleed), lump hurts, constant hip, back, pelvic, leg pain all on the left side, regular bloating, exhaustion and the lump and the pouch around it are bigger and I can feel the lump is attached deeper in and further down my pelvis. I get pain with a full bladder, or if I need to pass stool.. it’s not cool!
I ended up in a&e about 5 weeks ago. I had bloods taken, external and internal ultrasounds done, was seen by a junior dr on the gynaecology day ward, was told I have multiple cysts on my left ovary (no size mentioned) and told he suspects with my menstrual symptoms and history I described to him, that I have endometriosis. I haven’t worked for 6 weeks. I’m so tired and fed up of feeling ill and being in pain...
I’m seeing a gynaecologist this Wednesday for the first time.
I have experienced years of pain and emotional symptoms throughout my entire menstrual history except during 3 pregnancies, I’ve tried numerous contraceptive methods, pain relief, antidepressants, even mental health services when the drs kept telling me nothing was wrong, I had bad periods.
I’ve struggled with this growing lump in my pelvis and the symptoms and pain that go with it for just over two years..
And this Wednesday I’m seeing a gynaecologist for the first time.
I’m choked and I don’t know which tears to cry first.