I was wondering if anyone else feels really low around babies? Or is it just me?
I have had endometriosis for 14 years now and I have always wanted children but it never really crossed my mind as my partner and I were in a long distance relationship - I moved my life up to Scotland from London in December. My problem started when I had my first appointment up here and my heart literally shattered when my new consultant shared with me the reality of me conceiving a child (it was a very low percentage).
The previous week, my partners sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, so the doctors timing was perfect! The unfortunate thing is now whenever I go and see her I always feel a tinge of sadness as I know that this may never be my partner and I. I see the way he looks at her and it just breaks my heart. I love the little one but I can't help these feelings.
I have had multiple breakdowns over babies since the appointment and I know he can see how much I am hurting, but doesn't say much as he has told me that he doesn't know what to say. I now feel like it is easier to keep my feelings to myself as I know he will feel bad when I tell him that I feel sad whenever I see his niece.
Has anyone else had experiences/feelings like this? If so I would welcome your advice on how you dealt with your emotions.