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Feel like such a b*tch

Feeling so sad. Another one of my best friends has just told me she's pregnant after trying for a few months. Feel awful that i feel sad that I can't have that and also feel bad that I feel sad (if that makes sense). Am just having one of those why me days and hating endo for what it's done to my body. Sorry just wanted to feel less alone x

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Hey totally get where your coming from. It's so hard isn't it and tbh no one understands unless they are living the life we are. I would like to say it gets easier but if I'm honest it doesn't. It's cruel and I sometimes hate Endo for the way ive become if that makes sense xx

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Yes it does xxx sorry you are having to go through this it's rubbish 😔

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I used to feel exactly the same as you because endometriosis and adenomyosis prevented me from having children. However, for me, it has got easier over time and I no longer yearn to have children and I am not envious like I used to be when people told me they were pregnant (I am 43 now). I even applied for adoption years back but decided not to do it at the matching stage. I have done a lot of thinking over the years and I feel at peace now with not having children. Everyone is different and I realise others have felt it doesn't get easier in time but I just wanted to let you know there is a possibility that you won't always feel this way, like me. You are certainly not alone and it is natural that you feel this way, don't feel guilty that you do. I do hope things get better for you in the futurex

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Thank you so much for your reply. I'm glad it has got easier for you and thank you for letting me know I'm not alone xxx

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Hugs. I used to feel like this a lot and even now still get the odd pang of jealousy. Endo made me infertile and I found out that I couldn’t have kids the same week my best friend text me a scan photo saying she was due on my birthday! Also the same wk another best friend skped to say she was pregnant 😞. Felt broken. Then when was going through IVF my job share and my sister got pregnant! Was very very hard. But now I have a 4 year old daughter through adoption and it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. She’s my world. If you want to be a Mum there are other ways. Sorry you are going through these emotions xx

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Thank you so much xx I'm so glad you got to be a mum and yes we would adopt so you're right - it's just trying to accept things wont go the way you'd hoped x

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Hey it's only natural how you feel i was same as you or maybe worse I couldn't go on holiday where there was children had to booked adult only holiday. I also had no babies and still find it hard but it gets easier I blame Endometriosis. Just be patient and could happen.

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Thank youxxx

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Your not on your own Chick.its a big big thing and don't beat yourself up for feeling the way you do,Its natural to feel that way! I read your profile and its very similar to mine I had endo and adenmyosis so I know how you feel,especially as it took yrs and yrs of agony and frustration and ignorance from the doctors..wasnt until they opened me up that they saw it all.It does get easier over the yrs but little times may come into your head now and again..But if you have been thru endo your are STRONG LADY and you will get thru it..Sending u huggs ❤

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Thank you so much xxx

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