I've tried so hard to stay positive recently and focus on getting to my next op to clear up my endo but feel like I can't hide behind that mask anymore. It's not even so much the pain today I just feel so alone, been off work since end of jan and feel like people just don't bother with me anymore. Someone who I thought was a close friend made a really sarky comment yesterday on my Facebook status, she also didn't reply to a text asking if she fancied a catch up soon, and I feel like a couple other status's recently from others have been aimed at me so I have deactivated my Facebook account this morning as just don't need it. It doesn't help that my 4 year old has been having huge tantrums again recently which he used to do all the time but it calmed when he started school. He got up at 5:15 this morning and decided to tantrum ( he hits kicks and punchs too) which is not great when you are in pain. My op was supposed to be mid April but now they are saying it's more likely to be May. I just feel so depressed at the minute and feel like I have a huge ball of anxiety just sat in my chest. Can't stop crying today which doesn't help, I really wish my best friend was still here but she passed away 3 years ago I know she would understand. I'm sure I will pick myself up again and I may even be feeling like this because of the injections that have me in the temporary menopause but really do feel like I've hit rock bottom now sorry to be so depressing don't really have anyone to speak too that would understand.xx
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