This is my first post and only a few days after laparoscopy and finding out I do have old, new and scar tissue endometriosis. I don’t know what they’ve classed it as but the elated feeling I have about being diagnosed is great, it’s just the feelings around it all that no one understands. My boyfriend does but I can’t accept that he still understands and wants me after the way I look and am. Who I am, I have no idea anymore.
End–o has drained me for so long but on the positive I felt amazing after the laparoscopy.
We’ve been together for 1 year and 5 months and he’s amazing but I’m far from the woman I was when we met.
I was fit, healthy, able to do things, without him having to care for me or worry about me, I would want to do everything for him. But now I can’t, it’s sad. I had drive, passion, love for everything and would give everything my all.
I have none of that now, I’m positive it will all come back but I don’t think it’s fair he has to put up with this for much longer.
For me sex is so important in a relationship and so is being able to support my boyfriend. He doesn’t deserve this stress either. I love feeling close with him.
Is this normal to feel like this after finding out about end–o and having the surgery?
I want to be the woman he fell in love with even if he tells me he loves me more now.
This is hard work trying to understand everything in one go.
Thanks everyone and sorry if this sounds a bit down, I’m genuinely not but want to be with this guy for the rest of my life and don’t want this to jeopardise it.
sending all my love to you all going through this.