I am new here.
I had my lap last Wednesday and it has knocked me for six.
I was so focused on finding out what was going on and getting a diagnosis after years and years of being fobbed off that I didn't give a second thought to what comes after that and now I am totally lost. I was really ill when I woke up so missed out on the chance to talk to the consultant. He was there and said he had found endometriosis and scar tissue then I started throwing up not very long after so that conversation was cut short. I have a follow up appointment for 18th July so I will find out more then but I am just finding the diagnosis hard to come to terms with.
I know it is not helpful to think this way but I can't help but ask why me? I used to be such an active and busy person who thrived on my work. I feel like a shadow of my former self. I don't want to have to depend on the kindness of others for the rest of my life. How will I be able to cope with teaching from now on? What if I can never have children? I miss being independent and hate how much my life has changed as a result of this illness. Of course I have been thinking these things for some time but before the lap it didn't seem 'real' and I shook them off because I didn't know for sure that I had endometriosis. Now I do and I am losing the hope that I might feel better one day.
Can anyone relate? How did you all come to terms with your diagnosis?
Thanks for your help,