I have been diagnosed with endo 6month ago. I started to go to GP with complaints about lower abdomen pain, back pain, tiredness, mood swings, excessive need for rest, you name it I couldn't sleep, I couldn't work, I couldn't live my life properly it affected every aspect of my life, I have been taking so many medications that at end of it my body got use to it and no medications helped me, not anymore.
I had two years of a nightmare, from the start I have been told that the pain that I am experiencing is period pain, off course I knew that there is something else wrong with me. To be honest after so many times being told by numerous people even closest people that it is nothing, it is just a period pain, that it is in my head and that I am over thinking I honestly thought that I am crazy, I started to doubt myself, and my adequatism.
After two years going doctors eventually I have been sent to laporoscopy.
The day of laporoscopy.
I sat in room awaiting till time when the surgeon would call me in. I just thought to myself-is it me? is there something wrong with my head?am I making things up in my head that actually aren't there?
I was scared, I cried my eyes out. All sort of things went through my head.
But deep down I knew that I am not crazy, mentall women that makes up all those pain that I experienced!!!
Anyway, during the laparoscopy I have been diagnosed with endometriosis and they did burned endometriosis cells.
I have been sent home at the same day.
Now I am awaiting for another appointment With the surgeon to discuss my options.
To be honest I am so lost that I don't know what to think what to expect.
I am worrying about fertility, now and then I do cry and even I am not religious but sometimes I am lying in bed looking through the window and asking God to give me the chance to be a mum.
I just feel like no one understands me, any time when I am starting conversation about it I am getting told that I am overthinking and using google too much. It drives me mad.
Any advise anyone? Any suggestions?
How do you deal with it?