2 years ago I had my diagnostic lap and they got rid of my endometriosis. I was pain free for 6 months and it was amazing. How ever it came back with a vengeance. I've had every tablet every painkiller and every treatment available nothing worked so they agreed to send me for another lap. I had it yesterday. I have been so excited thinking I was finally going to get my life back. Go back to work and hopefully get out of this depression. For a while now I have been self harming as a way to relieve myself it's hard to explain but I've been trying to get help. So when the doctor came round after my surgery they told me there was no signs of endometriosis this time and they think it's because I'm constipated. I explained to them I take cocodamol all day every day to ease the pain I'm already in so of course I'm constipated. But this is obviously not going to be the reason I've been in chronic pain for a year and a half. As I've only been taking cocodamol for six months. They looked at me as if I was stupid. I spent the rest of the day crying my eyes out because I haven't in fact got my life back I'm actually back to square one trying to find out what on earth is wrong with me. To make matters worse they would not give me any painkillers for my recovery "for fear my depression is too severe to allow this". I was sent home with a lovely discharge letter stating that I need to go to my gp and get help for constipation and self harm.
I have honestly never been so upset in my life. I don't know how to get through this or what on earth is wrong with me but all I know is I can't do anything normal 21 year old's do.