It sounds daft. Maybe I'm alone in feeling like this but I don't recognize myself. I don't really feel like I have a personality anymore I'm just a mix of depression and anxiety in human form. I'm a bloody wreck - emotionally and mentally drained. Yet another appointment down and everyone says 'its positive,at least they're doing something'. Why can't I see that as positive? Surely positive would be being healthy and requiring no additional support. 1 lap and a surgery and a camera in my bowel being arranged. Am I just negative? Is this positive. I'm 22 and this stupid disease is killing my identity and a chance at a normal life. I can't help but feel guilty for the stress it's putting on my partner and family. I'm lost. A stranger to myself. My family say I've changed, my partner is struggling with my moods and I can't control my own body and emotions. Help?