Sorry to write such a depressing post but I am feeling so low and don't know how much more I can take. I am yet to be diagnosed as you will all know from my previous posts but the last two weeks have been really bad for me, the pain has been there constantly every day and gets a lot worse throughout the day , come night time I am so uncomfortable I just can't settle. I have been given oramorph to take every four hours during the day but this is drugging me up and I have a 5 year old son to entertain after school until bedtime. My family don't understand the amount of pain I am in or the affect it is having on my life, I guess I look fine so must be fine! I'm fed up of feeling alone in all this and feel like I just can't carry on like this anymore. I have the most understanding partner who really looks after me but I have pushed her away with my moods towards her because I am letting the pain get the better of me and become very depressed. I have a doctors appointment on Thursday to discuss a morphine patch to try and control the pain before it gets too bad, I feel like I have no choice now but to tell the doctor how bad my low mood has become and that I can't carry on this way! I am normally a very strong person who can tolerate pain but it has got so persistent that I have finally had enough! Sorry for the moan, I just feel so alone and not sure what else I can do!