OK so I am not actually pain free,but I am close to it as I have been in ages. Today I haven't even had painkillers.
I have had a totally rotten few weeks with brutal chest pain, suspected pulmonary embolism but God forbid anything that causes me pain shows up on a scan.
After all this though now I feel the least amount of pain from my endo that I have since probably December. This is almost cause for celebration. Almost.
Due to preexisting mental health issues, this whole situation has been so extremely difficult and I cannot enjoy a pain free stretch without waiting anxiously for the next flare. I cannot enjoy it because I am so exhausted from the last one and I am so busy managing my relapse of depression and desperately trying to make my managers realise I am a good worker even with the sick days.
I know it will get better and I will be able to enjoy pain free days, maybe even have more of them but this does feel like a big hill I'm climbing.
So today I am not in pain physically but mentally. Endo is cruel. So is depression.
Hope you enjoy your pain free days and get the support for the painful ones. Sorry for the sad post. Knowing you all understand helps so much.