I feel so frustrated because not only has endo robbed me of my physical well-being, it is affecting me so much mentally too. I have only around 1 good week a month. But I do have a few good hours here and there. The problem is that I am always so worried about the pain coming back, which it inevitably does. I cannot enjoy the few good hours I get because I am analysing every twinge that I have, becoming hypersensitive to every minor cramping sensation, expecting the pain to start any minute and I just keep waiting for the pain to arrive. Then I take painkillers and suffer through a few killing hours, and when the pain subsides somewhat, I start worrying again about the pain returning and the timing of my next painkiller. I feel like I am driving myself insane....yet I cannot get over this fear of pain. I don't go out anywhere even when I am feeling relatively ok because of it, I don't have a social life, I don't have a life..period. Does anybody have any strategies to deal with this fear?